shasha

2008-06-15T01:25:00.001+08:00

I want time to come to a standstill.
4 months seems to have passed like 4 hours.
I've been having sucha good time here with Baby.
And I don't wanna leave.
Not yet.

2008-06-10T04:07:00.001+08:00

Was giving Karthik the gifts wrong?
If it was, I wouldn't have told him.
We went for ice cream tdae at Movenpick.
And guess who Baby and I saw??
Surya, Jyothika, Diya and Karthi!
Surya looks awful.
But Jyothika looked like a normal pretty gurl..
And you knw what?
The baby Diya looked so utterly cute!
She looked so much like Jo..
Bet Sofy wished she was me rite now.
Haha.

2008-06-09T02:58:00.002+08:00

Baby just made his way home after our private party.
I had a good time with him but I think my sis had a better time.
And today, he explained the reason why he gets so angry.
It's coz no one understands him.
He told my sis that I understand him the most.
And even the most is only 60%.
I'll be more understanding from tmrw onwards.
Coz I felt really bad when he said that nobody understands him.
I love My Baby.
A lot.
And im steady rite now. (:

2008-06-08T18:48:00.002+08:00

1. Honestly what color is your shirt?
- Black and Pink.

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
- Lots of things.

3. Honestly, what have u done yesterday?
- Online, online, online.

4. Honestly, have you ever been in love?
- Yes.

5. Honestly, feeling anything unusual today?
- Nopes.

6. Honestly, is your heart still occupied?
- It's really 100% occupied.

7. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the fone?
- My Baby.

8. Honestly , are you jealous of somebody right now?
- Nopes.

9. Honestly, what makes you sad most of the time?
- Past memories.

10.Honestly, are you LOVING someone right now?
- Lots of pple.

11. Honestly ,what are the things u don't want in life?
- Regret, Misery, Hatred.

12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
- Nopes.

13. Honestly, any plannings in near future?
- Yes, juz planned drinking session tnite.

14. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
- More than life itself, I loveD someone.

15.Honestly, does anyone like you?
- Lots of guys and few gurls. (;

*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
- Cry.

2 . What's the worst things you've done when you were mad?
- Throw things.

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- Don't think so.

4. Do you curse when you're mad?
- Yes.

5. When was the last time you really cried?
- An hour ago.

6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
- Countless times.

7. What usually makes you cry?
- When I'm hurt.

8. Are you normally a happy person?
- Yeaps.

9. Does being with your friends makes you happy?
= Duh.

10. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
- Not really. Coz I already know that I'm pretty.
After all, I'm Shamita Sexay. ;D

2008-06-08T17:56:00.003+08:00

1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?
- 20.

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
- Of course NOT.

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
- Nothing.

4. Who was the last person you called?
- My Baby.

5. Any plans for today?
- Meeting Baby.

6. Who was the last person to text you?
- Ravi.

7. Who was the last person you kissed?
- Duh, my Baby larh.

8. Who was the last person you hugged?
- Baby.

9. Missing anyone?
- Lots of pple.

10. What happened at 11:00 a.m today?
- I was fast asleep.

11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
- Baby's House.

12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
- Bare feet.

13. When was the last time you cried?
- Just abt an hour ago.

14. What was the last thing you drank?
- Fanta juice.

15. Favorite ice cream?
- Chocolate.

16. What is your favorite number?
- uhm, 03?

17. Whats your favorite color(s)?
- Red and Black.

18. What made you laugh today?
- Rajesh Akka.

19. Do you like coffee?
- Not like.. but its okay.

20. How many cups of water do you drink on average?
- Lots.

21. What do you drink in the morning?
- Water.

22. Would you rather kiss a snake or an armadillo?
- What's an armadillo?

23. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
- Yeah, Left side.

24. Do you know how to play poker?
- Roughly.

25. What's so good about Friday?
- It's near the weekend.

26. Any plans for this week?
- Eat and sleep.

27. Do you eat out or at home more often?
- Rite now, out.

28. How big is your TV?
- Just 21 inch in my house in Chennai.

29. Ever stolen a street sign?
- What in the blue hell for?

30. Do you keep a piggy bank?
- Gone are those days..

31. What kind of camera do you have?
- Samsung Digi Cam.

33. Do you prefer the ocean or a pool?
- Pool coz I can swim in it.

34. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
- Window!

35. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
- What's that?

36. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
- Clothes?

37. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
- Diamond Earrings and Diamond Necklace.

38. Do you speak any other language?
- Tamil.
39. Can you roll your tongue?
- I think so.

40. Who is the funniest person you know?
- Myself.

41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
- No, juz my Baby's tee.

42. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
- Gimme More, Britney Spears.

43. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
- Nopes.

44. What is the color of your bedroom wall?
- Pinkish White.

45. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
- Yeah, water is precious rmb?

46. Are you crushing on someone right now?
- No.

47. Who?
- I said no.

48. What are you doing tomorrow?
- Rotting at home.

49. Are you nervous?
- Nopes, excited.

50. Where did you last go?
- Stairs outside my house to send Baby off.

2008-06-08T05:19:00.003+08:00

You.Can.Only.Type.One.Word.No.Explanations.

1. Yourself: Sweet. (:
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend: Awesome.
3. Your hair: Long.
4. Your mother: God.
5. Your Father: Noisy.
6. Your Favorite Item: Handphone.
7. Your dream last night: Abt Barath.
8. Your Favorite drink: Horlicks.
9. Your Dream Car: Mazda 3
10. The room you are in: Cold.
11. Your Ex: 12.
12. Your fear: Lizards
13. What you want to be in 10years: Housewife.
14. Who you hung out with last night: Myself.
15. What You're Not: Cheap.
16. Muffins: Yummy!
17: One of Your Wish List Items: My Baby.
18. Time: 02.52 am.
19. The Last Thing You Did: Chat.
20. What You Are Wearing: Pyjamas.
21. Your Favorite Weather: Rainy.
22. Your Favorite Book: Bio Text
23. The Last Thing You Ate: Maggi Noodles
24. Your Life: Sucks.
25. Your Mood: -

2008-06-08T02:42:00.003+08:00

Most people can't live without their

cell phone...so here's a survey about it...

OK, Go, Grab your phone!

1.What color is your phone?

- Black.

2.Who 's the first person who comes

up under the letter M?
- Madhan.

3.Who's the last person you called?

- My Baby.

4.Who was your last missed call from?

- Auto Driver.

5
.Who's the 2nd person who miss

called?

- Baby.

6.Who's speed dial 2?

- I don't use speed dial.

7.Who's the 3rd person who comes up

under J?

- Joyene.

8.Who was your last received call?

- Mummy.

9.Who's speed dial number 4?

- I don't use speed dial.

10.What is your wallpaper?

- Edwin and I.

11.How many text messages do you recieve?

- Lots.

12.Who's speed dial number 8?

- I DON'T USE IT.

13.What's the 10th message say in

your inbox? And from whom?

- I'm juz kidding dear. From Ravi.

14.Who's the 1st person who comes up

under B?

- Babu Home.

15.Who was your last text message

from?

- Ravi.

16.Name every person you have text

messages from:

- Auto Driver, Ravi, Baby.

17.Have you seen the 101 Chuck Norris

facts?

- What's that?

18.Who's the 2nd person on your U?

- Uma.

19.What does the 3rd message in your

outbox say?

- It's alright. Good nite and sugar dreams baby..

20.Who is the first name in your

Phonebook?

- Abdhullah.

21.Who is the last name in your

Phonebook?

- Zakiah. <3

22.Where was your wallpaper taken?

- In my room.

23.Last 4 digits of your number?

- 9026.

24.Starhub/M1/Singtel?

- M1.

25.Who is the 2nd person on your S?

- Selvy Mummy.

I'm B O R E D.

2008-06-08T02:14:00.002+08:00

1.Are you stubborn?

- Yes I am.

2.What are you looking forward to?

- Tomorrow with Baby.

3.Who are the third and eighteenth texts in your phone from?

- 3rd is Ravi and 18th is Hari.

4. What do you usually do first in the morning?

- Call my Baby.

5. What is one emotion you are feeling right now?

- Happy.

6. Who did you hang out with last night?

- No one.

7. What are you currently doing?

- Chatting.

8. Have you told someone you loved them today?

- My Baby.

9. Any plans for tomorrow?

- Outing with Baby.

10. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

- Lots. Hmm, Dad, Leo, Kavi etc etc.

11. Do you find the opposite sex confusing?

- Sometimes.

12. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?

-Nopes.

13. Are you going to be home alone tonight?

- I'm home with sis.

14. When is the last time you saw a movie in theaters?

- About 2 weeks back.

15. How was last week ?
- Horrendous.

16. Do you have a best friend?

- Best FriendS.

17. When is the last time you took a nap?

- Last night's sleep was like a nap.

18. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

- Yeaps.

19. What do you want most right now?

- Hmm, Baby's phone call i guess.

20. What do you carry with you at all times?

- Handphone.

21. Have you ever written a love letter?

- Just recently did.

22. Do you remember your dreams?

- At times.

23. Is someone mad at you right now?

- Maybe the auto driver whom I've been ignoring?

24. When was the last time you were sick?

- Last week.

25. Last person you hung out with?

- Baby.

26. What did you do?

- Went for dinner.

27. Money or love ?

- Love. (:

2008-06-07T23:36:00.002+08:00

Guess what?
I was looking through my inbox and i found this email sent to me by Concerned X.
It was just this person who claimed to be concerned abt me.
and this is what she said:
And no matter what u tell me Ms Rawks,
I KNOW u CANNOT GET OVER HER.
Cos I know the INTENSITY WITH WHICH U LOVED HER
Unless u telling me your love was FAKE
So she was right after all.
Moving on, today was sucha boring day.
Baby's away doing his show which ends at 11pm.
It's been 2 days since I saw him.. ):
But tmrw I'll start roaming again. Haha.
I feel super tired man.
Stayed up till 5am last night chatting with Kavi.
And it was nice talking to him after a long time.
Oh and Ravi is moving to Bangalore coz he got a job there.
I'm glad that he got a job but why can't it be in Chennai?!
Oh and I forgot to mention smth very important.
I love Leo Franklin. :D

2008-06-07T20:29:00.004+08:00

i was feeling really bored yesterday.
and with all the trouble recently, i decided to visit my old blog to relive memories.
that's when i decided to give my dead blog life.
and here it is now.
i've been working on it the past few hours and im kinda satisfied with the result.
this is just a test post anyw.
i'll blog later after my shower.
gotta shampoo my hair and scrub my body.
hahaha.. (;

2008-01-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

2007-11-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

HYDROGEN I MISS YOU.
AND ALL MY FRIENDS AS WELL.
<33333>

2007-11-17T15:26:00.000+08:00

if she knows me well enough,
she'll know why im staying away from her.
everything has changed.
my heart no longer beats faster when i see her,
it beats slower and slower.
my cheeks no longer blush when i see her,
instead the colour drains out of my face.
i used to be speechless each time i see her coz of her beauty,
but now im speechless coz i fear being hurt.
i used to feel overjoyed when i see her arnd,
but now i feel the joy disappear if she's arnd.
im always staring at her if she's arnd,
but now i look away even when i see her coincidentally.
and all these isn't because i no longer love her.
its because i love her too much.
to the extent that it hurts me.

2007-10-26T11:18:00.000+08:00

~~dearest wifey, my foot.~~
im not dead you knw?

2007-10-21T13:03:00.000+08:00

OMG it's o levels tmrw.
can you believe it?
im so scared larh.
i think sofia is so lucky.
coz her cousins and all encouraging her to do well and stuff.
my cousins?
one is taking care of her child at home and the other two roaming arnd spore.
im the only sad soul trying to fnsh up studying.
at least my Iyer chellam bothered to calm me down.
yesterday he was msging me till 1am.
isn't he sweet?
okay larh i can't blog all.
its wasting time.
gotta start on geog and fnsh up chem.
haiz, this sucks man.

2007-10-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

its been a really long time since i blogged.
was planning to blog after o's.
but im in sucha lousy mood tdae that i juz hafta blog.
i dont know where to start larh.
i was juz wondering how long more i'll hafta suffer in silence.
let's see.
im leaving on 25 november.
so thats like a month more.
after that, i hope things will change.
i hope i'll be able to forget her and move on with life.
im so sick and tired of pretending.
in my heart of hearts, i know the truth.
but deluding myself makes life easier.
i'm so unhappy with things here larh.
and i still dnoe whose fault it is.
probably mine.
tsk, i dont feel like talking abt it already.
its something so deep that no one talks to me abt it.
and neither do i talk to anyone abt it.
besides the t-shirt on my bolster of course.
but whats the point?
call my name and save me from myself.

2007-09-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

what a tiring day it has been.
juz reached home frm gym session.
i think my trainer is fun man.
she made exercising enjoyable.
and i feel much better now.
at least it has helped me keep my temper under control.
i've been really mad at the school's total lack of understanding.
my goodness.
after prelims, did they at least give us one damn day of rest?
held us up and forced us to listen to talks.
sheesh, im so disappointed in them larh.
and guess what?
i screwed my maths and geog.
maths was expected larh but geog..
well i hope that at least there is an improvement.
i feel like telling the math teachers right to their face to stop FORCING me to achieve the things that i DONT BLOODY WANT TO.
and the school has also taken away our saturdays for amaths lessons.
now i've gotta travel 2 hours for juz a maths lesson. tsk.
haiz i can juz go on complaining forever man.
i wish they could juz give us a break.
and if they refuse to do so, i'll take my own break.
gosh i realise that as i grow up, im getting increasingly rebellious.
its juz that i dont see a purpose in life, conforming to societal norms and not living the way you want to.
and not to mention that i cant find my place in this world.

2007-09-18T18:58:00.000+08:00

so finally the damn prelims are over.
went to macs aft sch with abt 6 of the gurls.
then went to sukee's hse and watched cody banks 2.
movie was good but i was super tired.
juz got the harry potter book from sukee.
and im sure that for the next few days, i'll be buried in the book.
last night went to see my new nephew.
im chitti now, can you believe it?
well anw, he cant call me chitti, only akka.
his name is probably gonna be ashwinder singh.
the first punjabi born into the family, haha.
he's really cute you knw?
very, very fair and chubby.
and you knw what?
that damn boy of mine said on the BLOODY TELEVISION that he likes monisha.
one of the participants of the show he's judging.
i was pissed larh please. grr.
dont think the gurls are going to sch tmrw..
and neither am i.
all boring jc talks which i wouldnt even need.
post-prelim activities are sucha bore, tsk.
and i realise that i get really, really quiet at times nowadays.
the memories are painfully poignant i spose.
and when you walk away,
i count the steps that you take.

2007-09-10T16:27:00.000+08:00

amaths paper tdae was utterly horrid.
it was the most horrible paper ever.
so im definitely failing.
it doesnt matter much to me coz im not gonna take amaths into my L1R5.
but what im upset abt is disappointing ms ang.
shes sucha dedicated tcher and i respect her for that.
but once again, i disappointed her.
haiz, its sad really.
moving on, everyone knws that i dont go for character in guys.
all the guys i've dated.. well, i found them good-looking in one way or another.
thats why my relationship with guys never lasts.
but as im growing up and maturing, i sense a change within me.
i've learnt to appreciate guys with excellent character, smth i didnt do before.
one of the guys is of course my boy, sim.
no, we're not in a relationship or anyth.
we're juz friends but im used to calling him my boy.
anw, he has the reputation of a rake and a flirt in society.
out of 10 pple, 9 will say speak of him badly.
but recently, i got to knw him better.
juz watch him in vijay tv's super jodi show.
he's one of the judges.
if you actually observe him with an open-mind, you'll realise that he's a truly admirable person.
he never hurts anyone with harsh comments and look at the way he speaks to the participants.
for instance, bubbloo was saying that he wanted to make his father proud by becoming a big star coz his father was in his last stages of lung cancer.
and my boy replied, "you are already a big star. why do you think you're not a star? im sure your dad is proud of you."
which star will actually say such things to someone obviously much inferior to him?
this is juz one of the many things which has proven that he has a heart of gold.
and im proud to say that he's my friend.
for all those out there, dont judge him based on rumours.
take the time and effort to get to knw him and you'll realise that he's a remarkable person.
and please, dont speak of him or judge him if you dont know him. thanks.
on the train tdae, my friends kept teasing me abt Hydrogen.
they said that i'll hold on to her forever coz i love her too much to let go.
well i juz kept quiet all the way coz i dont hafta prove to anyone that i've let go.
i held on to her for so freaking long despite the pain coz yes, i love her a lot.
but now, i love her more than before and thats why i've let go.
you hafta love someone enough to actually be able to let he/she go if clearly, he/she is better off without you.
and did i mention that i've got hyperactive tear glands?

2007-09-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

ms ang msged me ystrdae.
i screwed up amaths paper one.
so i decided to do maths tdae.
the fear finally made me sit down and work on it.
but it was kinda useless coz its too last minute.
alicia asked me for her number juz now.
and in a desperate attempt to prove to myself that i forgot her, i immediately sent her the number.
then i realised that i shd've asked her permission first.
so i told her larh.
but i dont undst why i kept checking my phone the entire day aft that.
i kinda successfully managed to convinve myself that i wasnt looking forward to her msg.
until she accidentally msged me at night.
words wont be able to describe what went on within me that moment.
you knw when i think abt this, i can literally feel my spirit being crushed.
so i'll stop and get to reading. (:

2007-09-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

its weds already..
and believe it or not, i havent touched books since last weds.
thats a whole bloody week without mugging.
what i've been doing?
hmm, watching movies, movies and more movies.
oh, and reema sen too.
went to NUH tdae..
uncle met with an accident last night.
he doesnt even speed larh please.
daddy speeds like hell.
actually i like it a lot coz i find it damn cool.
but now, i think its better not to larh.
i cant wait to go to the zoo on fridae!!
-starts singing.
im going to the zoo, zoo, zoo.
how abt you, you, you?
you can come too, too, too.
im going to the zoo, zoo, zoo!
when i actually allow myself to think abt you,
it hurts so deeply to know that i cant get you.
~~and i miss you.~~

2007-08-31T21:18:00.000+08:00

now if you wanna know why im being crazy, then watch this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlA-w9zuF9U
but its not that sim touched my hand larh.
haha.

2007-08-25T14:54:00.000+08:00

i havent start on SS!
gosh im getting stressed man.
in the lib with my someone now.
shes downstairs rotting while im destressing.
last night was so depressing larh.
dont ask me why.
but today's better with my someone. (:

2007-08-23T19:40:00.001+08:00

WHY MUST IT BE THIS SATURDAY??
WHEN THERE IS NO SCHOOL????
i gotta do smth special tmrw larh.
im stressed.
dnoe what to do.
and need to study also.
im super stressed.

2007-08-23T19:40:00.000+08:00

WHY MUST IT BE THIS SATURDAY??
WHEN THERE IS NO SCHOOL????
i gotta do smth special tmrw larh.
im stressed.
dnoe what to do.
and need to study also.
im super stressed.

2007-08-22T20:09:00.000+08:00

today was simply hilarious. and of course, stressful.
1) hazie and i went to LJS in the morn and realised that we were the only ones.
2) hazie ate TWO burgers for breakfast. [sorry babes]
3) outside the lib, pple were waiting for it to open in a damn QUEUE.
4) when the door was opened, pple RAN into the lib.
5) both of us were alone in the lib toilet. while inside the cubicle, i was humming.
then hazie asked me if i was humming and i decided to say no.
i put up a drama of being scared and hazie got frightened.
she left my handphone, ipod and wallet in the toilet and ran out.
6) i got scared myself and ran outta the cubicle without zipping the jeans and all.
7) hazie was so scared that she wanted to go to the toilet for handicaps.
8) there was a cute guy sitting behind hazie.
she removed her pullover so that the guy can see her name on the jersey.
seriously, she has sucha weirdly brilliant mind.
9) hazie thought that PIGEONS were a species related to PIGS.
10) she thought that PIGEONS were called CROWS.
so juz imagine how i was laughing the entire day.
but now im back home.
and feeling stressed.
oh yes, when you see me, rmb to slap me.
i went down to the shop looking like a filipino maid.
hair in a bun, fringe pinned up, not sexy clothes and.. juz not pretty.
i juz had to see valentino man.
he was gonna go off in his bike with his bro.
and he smiled at me.
i was seriously wondering WHY i went down looking like that.
and then, why i broke up with sucha handsome, sweet boy.
oh now i rmb, i wanted to be loyal to Hydrogen.
what a waste man, i lost smth for NOTHING IN RETURN.

2007-08-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

i've said it a million times.
i dont wanna hear anyth abt her, geddit?
whether she says hie to you or sends you home, you jolly well KEEP IT TO YOURSELF.
dont call me so many times to report to me.
so pissed off this aftnn.
she called me THREE times when i was sleeping.
then she went, "will you be angry if i told you Hydrogen sent me hme?"
i was like, what the hell man.
and then i had to tell her that i dont give a damn and all.
my goodness, it annoys me really.
HOW ON EARTH DOES IT CONCERN ME IF YOU WENT HOME WITH HER?
afterall, i dont even know her on a personal level.
and YOU, do you hafta tell her that i msged you?
whatever man.
on a lighter note, my nalla neram tdae was 01:42 pm.
hahaha.
i was juz telling hazie that i didnt get to see Chromium the entire day and she walked past.
gosh the smile on my face was simply huge and hazie started laughing.
Chromium gave us this weird look. lol.
Girls, my issue abt Chromium must be TOP-SECRET okay?
i hate you because you're filling my heart
which was once so full of pure and true love
with sheer hatred and disgust.

2007-08-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

shes really upsetting me.
i knw its mind over matter and stuff.
but why does she hafta put me through it in the first place?
its not easy to stop my mind frm thinking abt her.
but i have to.
coz if i think abt her, then all that there would be is confusion and unhappiness.
i mean, the regret is one thing.
the other thing is that i've gotten so used to her.
she is my life and without her, i dnoe where i stand.
i juz wanna have the peace of mind to know that shes with me.
is it THAT difficult to spend 15 mins with me each day?
the more she changes, the more im starting to dislike her.
its not that i dont love Hydrogen.
i always will love Hydrogen, the old Hydrogen.
this woman i know now is a complete STRANGER.
i hope things get better soon, really.
its all in her hands.

2007-08-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

headed to je lib in the morn with her..
revised geog and did tamil hmwk..
came back at abt 6.
destressed by watching norbit.
it was super, super, super hilarious.
then did tamil hmwk again..
now im feeling so damn tired.
like seriously, seriously exhausted.
body's aching, head aching and temperature's rising.
but gotta go tmrw.
i think i shd retire to bed early tdae.
i've been missing you a lot lately.
each time i msg you, you dont wanna msg me properly.
you dont wanna make convo.
you're not interested the least bit.
no matter how much i complain, you dont wanna set aside even a few mins for me.
its not that im sad or anyth, have gotten used to it.
but regret is an even worse feeling.
im starting to feel regret.
regretting things which gave me all the joy in the world.
hope you understand.
can we go back to how it was before?
please?
i promise i'll not make mistakes again.
i promise to be good.

2007-08-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

today was quite productive.
esp night study.
finished a whole amaths paper.
without getting distracted coz i had the ipod on.
or else the noise that those group of gurls make will definitely disturb me.
night walk was only at 8.
brought my sec3 sweetheart along.
haha, tdae wasnt scary at all.
the art room was open and lots of pple arnd.
oh yes, before i forget.
SS lesson was simply hilarious tdae.
firstly, hazie wrote in her essay on Spore's population policies smth that really cracked me up.
she wrote, "most married couples choose to have less than two VEGETATION" instead of CHILDREN.
ROFL. it was super funny.
then CT was really making me laugh.
the bell had already rung and she continued with the lesson.
the funny part was she kept saying "lastly, finally, one last reminder" and it dragged on for abt 20 mins.
then juz as hazie was relieved and abt to leave the classroom, CT came in and told us, "girls girls go bck to your seats. one last thing."
you should've seen our faces.
i couldnt suppress my laughter man.
lots and lots of msgs were coming in tdae.
but none from the person i want it to be.
sick and tired of replying.
that pretty much sums up the day.
im off to sleep now.

2007-08-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

so how come i didnt know that all these pple have feelings for Hydrogen?
why didnt she tell me?
i really dont like this you knw.
i mean, pple juz stop it will ya?
it seriously annoys me the way you pple run after her and make a fool out of yourselves.
shes not aishwarya rai.
shes Hydrogen.
well its definitely a good thing that im moving on.
coz she has no time for me and all.
im juz one of the many crazy girls who are after her.
nothing special abt me.

2007-08-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

did she like slam the door in my face tdae?
tsk, why doesnt she talk to me man?

2007-08-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

im really confused..
and im tired.
how am i gonna talk to him over lunch tmrw?
and im not going to sch for this man.
im shy and i dnoe what to say to him.
thought of talking to Hydrogen abt things but she didnt answer my call.
i dnoe, im really confused.

2007-08-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

YOU FUCKING WONT BELIEVE THIS!
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF SUCH A BLOODY HOT GUY SHOOTS YOU A FLYING KISS??
WELL, MADDY GAVE ME A FLYING KISS.
HAHAHAHA, IM SO DAMN LUCKY.
im busy larh.
meeting my boy tomorrow. (;

2007-08-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

1. What are your initials?
- i dnoe, SESL?

2. What is your favourite thing to
wear?
- bras with matching undies.

3. Last thing you ate?
- milo in sch.

4. I say "SHOTGUN", you say?
- what gun?

5. Last person you hugged?
- li ling.

6. Does anyone you know want to date
you?
- dnoe.

7. The last place you went out to eat?
- uh, cheers.

8. Who is your best friend(s)?
- the girls larh.

9. What do you want to eat at the
moment?
- nothing.

10. Who/What made you angry today?
- nothing.

11. Favorite type of Food?
- chocolates.

12. Favourite holiday:
- no preference.

13. Do you download music:
- yeah.

14. Do you care if your socks are
dirty?
- not really.

15. Would you date the person who
posted this?
- no way.

16. Has anyone ever sang or played
music for you personally?
- yes. -blushes.

17. Do you love anyone?
- hahaha.

18. Have you ever bungee jumped?
- no way man.

19. Have you ever gone sky diving?
- never going to.

20. Has anyone ten years older than you
ever hit on you?
- definitely.

23. How is the weather right now?
- i dnoe.

24. What are you listening to right
now?
- yemmadi aathadi.

25. What is your current favourite
song?
- all simbu songs.

26. What was the last movie you
watched?
- thiruvilaiyaadal.

27. Do you wear contacts?
- yups.

28. Where was the last place you went
besides your house?
- school.

29. How many piercing have you had?
- two.

30. How many red shirts you own?
- quite a number.

31. What's one thing you've learned
this year?
- dont be kpo.

32. Have you ever fired a gun?
- nopes.

33. Favourite channels/shows?
- desp hsewives.

34. Have you cried recently?
- yesterday.

35. Who would you like to see right
now?
- Hydrogen.

36. Favourite movie?
- Manmadan, Vallavan.

37. Do you find yourself loved?
- yes, but for my beauty only.

38. Have you ever been caught doing
something you weren't suppose to?
- yesh.

39. Favourite flower?
- roses.

40. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
- sweetened please.

41. What Magazines are you reading?
- Cine Fashion.

42. Who or what made you laugh today?
- Hydrogen.

43. What's something that really bugs
you?
- her class girls.

44. Do you like Michael Jackson?
- nah.

45. What's your favourite smell?
- the way she smells.

46. Favourite cereal?
- corn flakes.

47. What's the longest time you've
gone without sleep?
- two days.

48. Where is the weirdest place you
have slept?
- cant remember.

today was good. (:
this is me.
im shamita.

2007-08-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

1. How old are you and do you look
your age?
- im 16 but pple say i look 18.

2. Who is the last person that called
you?
- sofia.

3. Who is the last person that texted
you?
- vicky.

4. Where is the first place you went
today?
- Guardian pharmacy.

5. Last time you were at the beach?
- seriously cant remember.

6. Are you tan?
- yeah i think so.

7. Do you like rollercoasters?
- no way.

9. Next concert you are going to?
- YEAH OMG! THE 75 CELEBRATIONS THINGY! $500 TICKET!

10. When did you last buy a new pair
of pants?
- think last month.

11. Name a friend who lives in another
country?
- my manmadan.

13. Who was the first person you
talked to this morning?
- Ponny.

14. How many peircings do you have?
- two.

15. Last time you posted a new
Friendster
picture?
- 3 weeks ago.

16. What was the first city you lived
in?
- Lion city.

19. Have you ever been camping?
- yeaps.

20. Name a random line from a song.
- vallava ennai vellava... -starts singing.

21. Do you own a cellphone?
- who doesnt, seriously?

22. Furthest place you have driven
yourself?
- i dnot drive.

23. What was the highlight of your
week?
- let's not talk abt that.

24. Last time you got your hair cut?
- 13 july.

25. What was the last museum you went
to?
- the one in my paalbottle.

28. Do you have any pictures that you
don't remember taking?
- yesh.

29. Are any of your friends pregnant?
- my cousin.

31. Do you have any nicknames?
- no.

33. Have you ever had braces?
- nopes.

34. Do you have glasses/contacts?
- yeah.

35. What are your big plans for the
month?
- no big plans.

36. Do you know what tofu is?
- tofu is tofu rite?

37. What is the last movie you watched?
- you're not gonna believe this. thiruvilaiyaadal.

38. Do you have a dog?
- nopes.

39. What is the last concert/show you
went to?
- ITFA.

41. If you could see one person right
now who would it be?
- who else would it be?

42. Last movie you saw in the theater?
- Harry Potter.

43. Do you get jealous easily?
- i think so.

44. What do you do when your mad?
- shout, cry, scream.

45. Do you think WWE is a negative
role model for young Boys?
- no doubt about that.

2007-08-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

and this is an attempt to get rid of the headache.

40 secrets about yourself. be honest
no matter what.

[one] what is your natural hair color?
- black.

[two] where is your default picture
taken?
- in my room.

[three] what's your middle name?
- haha, my name is shamita i don't know eng siew lian.

[four] what color do you hate most?
- pink.

[five] does your crush like you back?
- dont have a crush at the moment.

[six] what is your current mood?
- irritated.

[seven] what color underwear are you
wearing?
- red.

[eight] what makes you most happy?
- spending time with her.

[nine] look at a picture/poster in
your room, who's on it?
- my manmadan.

[ten] if you could go back in time and
change something, what you would
change?
- i wouldnt have come to crescent.

[eleven] if you must be an animal for
one day, what would you be?
- tiger.

[twelve] ever had a near death
experience?
- im dying now.

[thirteen] something you do a lot?
- sleep.

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
- wake me up.

[fifteen] what is your desktop
background?
- simbu and i.

[sixteen] what are you wearing?
- brown striped boxers and Gap singlet.

[seventeen] when was the last time you
cried?
- this afternoon.

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front
of a large audience?
- nopes.

[nineteen] if you could have one super
power what would it be?
- to be invisible when i want to.

[twenty] what's the first thing(s) you
notice about the opposite sex?
- uhm, face?

[twenty-one] what do you usually order
from Starbucks?
- coffee larh.

[twenty-two] what's your biggest
secret?
- secrets are meant to be kept.

[twenty-three] favorite color?
- red, black, white.

[twenty-four] is it sunny or raining?
- its not raining but there is no sun coz its 1030pm.

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy
movies or TV shows?
- at times.

[twenty-six] what are you eating or
drinking at the moment
- pocky chocolate sticks.

[twenty-seven] do you speak any other
language?
- naan tamizhachi. (:

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite
smell?
- the way she smells.

[twenty-nine] if you could describe
your life in one word what would it be?
- roller coaster.

[thirty] when was the last time you
received a hug?
- hmm, few days ago. from my flirting partner li ling.

[thirty-one] have you ever kissed in
the rain?
- yes but we were under shelter. haha.

[thirty-two] what/who are you thinking
about right now
- the person i kissed in the rain under shelter.

[thirty-three] what should you be
doing?
- homeworking.

[thirty-four] what was the last thing
that made you upset/angry?
- no comments.

[thirty-five] how often do you laugh?
- used to be very frequently. but now, i dnoe, rarely.

[thirty-six] do you like working in
the yard?
- yard? no.

[thirty-seven] if you could have any
last name in the world, what would you
want?
- uhm, silambarasan?

[thirty-eight] do you act differently
around your crush/significant other?
- not really.

[thirty-nine] name one song that
reminds you of an ex?
- promise by stacie orrico.

[forty] who was the last person to
make you cry?
- oh please dont ask.

2007-08-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

im so used to being taken care of.
and thats why i went through a lot today.
both mummy and daddy are not in town.
and ponny went out to the airport.
the day sucked.
and im having a very bad headache.
i started mugging without doing hmwk.
and now when i shd start with the hmwk, im too tired.
oh yeah, now i know why i've been cranky the past few days.
its juz a bad case of PMS coupled with whatever problems that came my way.
oh yes, can you believe what i did ystrdae?
some unknown Damn added me on MSN and said she likes Hydrogen.
at first i forced myself to stay calm and all.
and then i juz couldnt take it larh.
plus, i replied her email and got so emotional.
and its a stranger!!
im embarrassed man.
but the reply from Damn was really weird.
i dont understand whats going on.
if she likes Hydrogen, then why is she concerned abt me?
and the person doesnt sound like a jnr man.
whatever it is, i think its wise to stop talking to her.
she seems to be very close to Hydrogen.
so i shdnt talk to her, right?

2007-08-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

i cant even tell pple to not love her coz she isnt mine.
do you have any idea how much it hurts when she talks to everyone else but not to me?
and i wish i didnt find my pride.
coz then at least i'll run after her.
its juz too upsetting this way.
and its seriously affecting me a lot.
the world is sucha cruel place.
i'd rather be in hell.
hope you read that God.

2007-08-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

i didnt even shed a tear yesterday.
even after everything she said, i didnt cry.
you know why?
coz it has seriously passed the crying stage.
its life at its worst.
no one has ever said such things to me.
the pain is just beyond tears.
and her sorry isnt gonna take back her words.
i dont know howta tell others how it feels.
and my days are apent staring into blank space.
its terrible, really.
maybe i need time.
but i'll never forget it, ever.
and i gotta learn howta smile again.
pple say i've
gotta start smiling.
but smiling hurts.
i shd stay back for night study tmrw.
and seriously get some studying done.

2007-08-01T22:39:00.001+08:00

was it sucha big mistake?
i took the number, yes.
but i didnt wanna call or anyth.
please larh, why shd i?
i already knw who it is.
it was a mistake.
a mistake i made coz i was so blinded by love.

2007-07-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

atrocious!
but it turns me on.
my manmadan is the hottest.

2007-07-29T00:39:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep man.
tried to study SS juz now but it wasnt very successful.
ended up looking at her pictures and thinking, thinking, thinking.
but still couldnt sleep.
so decided to log on and check if sim's online.
but he isnt.
since there is nth to do, i shall log off.
life is being sucha bitch.
and i've mentioned that friendster horoscopes are true rite?
my horoscope for today would be:
Try not to resist transitions in any of your relationships -- especially the romantic ones -- right now. If you can stay open to changes a little bit longer, then you will benefit from some important new information. Feeling uncomfortable for a short period of time is a small price to pay for an enlightened sense of who you are, and what role you are meant to play in this partnership. Just let things take their course, and you will be able to bob and weave along with the changes.

2007-07-28T16:03:00.000+08:00

i know i dont love a heartless person.
no matter what others say, i KNOW that she isnt heartless.
anyway its only human to make mistakes.
when pple make mistakes, they attempt to redeem themselves.
like if you fail an exam, you study harder to do well for the next exam.
but some mistakes cannot be undone.
and my mistake was to fall in love with her.
and there is no way to redeem myself.
i think Hydrogen shd know me better.
that time isnt gonna make me forget her.
i've said it a million times.
that i cant live without her.
and its true.
it feels like im dying slowly and silently.
the mischievous side of me disappeared.
and then the happiness and peace went away.
and now, even the smiles are fading off.
coz shes my everything and without her, im nothing.

2007-07-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

(1) dont disturb me anymore.

(2) i cant help her anymore.

(3) i dont want to talk to her anymore.

so all these while, i've been DISTURBING her and everything she has done for me and with me is not coz she WANTED to do it but coz she didnt want to hurt me. and it never occured to her that she should apologise coz she meant all of the above. despite all these, i still...
im ashamed of myself, really.

2007-07-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

dancing is a way to release anger.
but no matter how much i dance, im still angry.
period.

2007-07-21T16:43:00.000+08:00

so here i am again, with a heart so heavy.
feelings and emotions are so complicated really.
its been one and a half years and yet, when it comes to her, i juz cant understand myself.
i miss her so bloody much.
its been days since we spent some time together.
each time the phone vibrates, im hoping its her.
and when it isnt, i juz dont wanna reply the msg.
when it is her, i wanna msg and msg non-stop.
but i dnoe why, i dont try to keep the convo flowing.
no actually, i think i know why.
coz i assume that shes busy with work and i'll juz drop it.
i wanna talk to her so much but smth stops me.
and anw, i cant expect anyth frm her rmb?
even though we're talking again, i still feel empty.
so void of true happiness and peace.
my days are spent thinking abt things that'll never happen.
and it is at these times that i sought the company of my boy.
i dont wanna do so anymore coz it upsets me that i can never meet him again.
so i guess that juz leaves me with the last option.
i shd start talking to guys again.
or maybe gurls coz i've got a "secret" admirer in school.
but the prob is, i'll never love any of them.
my mind, body and soul is all hers.
on a lighter note, racial harmony day was good.
sari was disastrous though.
and it was mr lai's last day.... )))):
gonna be so bored in school.
oh yes, i was chatting with mr lai this morn and guess what?
he said im chio. -beams.
dont be jealous haziratul, its okay.

2007-07-18T17:33:00.001+08:00

i know im sposed to be happy after seeing simbu and all.
i mean, not everyone gets a chance to hug him.
and simbu doesnt talk to juz anyone.
we all know what a flirt he is.
anyway, its weird that i dont feel happy at all.
its like there is smth missing in life.
i've understood that no one will be able to make me feel the way she makes me feel.
she is more impt to me than simbu.
isnt it weird the way love works?
but whats the point of loving her so much?
im not getting anything in return.
and yet, i wont let go.
the worst part abt it is that i dnoe what i did wrong.
did i do smth wrong?
or issit her moodswings?
i dnoe larh.
i think i shd juz give her some time.
even though that means torturing myself.
-shrugs.

2007-07-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like studying.
i dont feel like homeworking.
i dont feel like eating.
i dont feel like sleeping.
i dont feel like talking.
i dont feel like dancing.
i dont feel like going to school.
i dont feel like seeing her.
because im lovesick.
im not myself.

2007-07-08T18:22:00.000+08:00

just a week left baby.
less than a week actually.
and im not ready for it at all!
all coz of the stupid amaths re-exam on tues i couldnt shop this weekend.
wednesday after sch, im off to rupini's to do threading.
thursday aft sch is shooping for top, bottom, bag, footwear and accessories at vivo.
tamil society farewell thingy on friday and i need to get my beauty sleep.
on saturday, i need to start dolling myself up abt 1 plus.
omg, im soo stressed and exicted at the same time.
im gonna see my boy!
and i wanna lose a lil more weight!
oh, pls remind me to get my digi cam ready.
july 15 is sister's bdae.
my bestie's turning 5 in a week's time.
need to get smth for my lovely.
okay larh, i gotta go mug for amaths.
im not even done with half the book.
and guess what??
mr lai said "bye.. shamita" to me on friday AGAIN aft bio.
he remembers my name. (:
and he doesnt even know that hazie is from our class.
HAHAHA. hazie dont get upset.
you know i dont like him.
im married.
rmb my wifey?
-cheeky grin.

2007-06-23T11:18:00.000+08:00

Z's in a relationship.
period.
so ysttrdae my neighbour was shifting hse.
and her boyfriend came to help move the things and all.
it was so bloody interesting man.
inside secret, sorry. (;
friends, remind me to tell you guys abt the 9 hours of... i dnoe what.
and while i was rushing my emaths hmwk ystrdae, daddy called.
he went like.. "uh.. i think the simbu talking on the radio"
omg, i was so damn excited that i threw my handphone, literally.
i rushed to the radio and tuned it to the oli channel.
and omg, MY BOY WAS TALKING!!!
i was screaming and jumping up and down.
actually, i dont even know what i was doing larh.
but my boy said he isnt gonna perform... ):
so i was complaining to daddy abt him not dancing.
then my daddy said that he doesnt wanna dance coz i dont wanna dance with him.
so i said i'll dance with him larh. lol.
its alright man, he'll dance for me in private. hehe. (;
mummy said shes me giving me $150 to shop for clothes to go see my boy.
my parents have never been this supportive of my obsessions.
note: this is an obsession, not love. although i do love him. haha.
oh i had a dream abt him ystrdae.
it was so.. sweet. :D
i've never wanted a guy this much.
anw, its good that i have my boy.
coz i can channel all my love to him and not to some other pple. -ahems.
school's gonna open. tsk.
i dont have any reason to go back to sch now.
it sucks. there is nth nice abt it.
N-O-T-H-I-N-G. or rather, nobody.
okay larh, im going to msia later.
so gotta fnsh up geog hmwk.
gosh, im gonna be so stressed the first week coz i havent done tons and tons of hmwk.
kk, chaoz then.
wrong words may seem to rhyme,
but they dont,
and they can never.

2007-06-17T11:06:00.000+08:00

im juz too in love with my boy that i hafta say it again.

i love my boy to bits.

2007-06-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

MY BOY IS COMING TO SPORE!
YAYYYYYY!
but the sad thing is that the stupid nayan is also coming.
damn it.
Mummy knows some guy who is in charge of the event.
she's making arrangements for me to meet him.
and im going for the show too.
i wanna get the $200 tix but i dont think mummy will allow.
so i guess i've gotta settle for the $100 one.
i shd be going with my family.
and of course, they are totally fine with my boy and i being in love.
im gonna get him baby.
he's mine. and only mine.
now, coming back to reality.
i dnoe what the hell is wrong with that woman.
she made me realise the truth juz to do this to me eventually.
its heartless man.
and it isnt the first time.
i dont ever wanna see her or talk to her again.
ugh, im disgusted.
and i dont wanna get close to any guy coz i've got my boy.
okay fine, maybe i'll juz keep in contact with the guys who are seriously interested in me.
coz i know how it feels to be ignored by the one you love so much.
sch is opening in a week's time.
and i havent done ANY hmwk.
gosh, im screwed.
i better get down to work man.

2007-06-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

so the gurls came over today.
had a very filling lunch.
we watched pulse together.
it wasnt scary man.
but the plot was pretty good.
and then we played card games.
got bored of it all.
the we moved on to pranking pple.
pranked salma, azima, suren, naki, abdhullah and a few of my ex guys.
i called azima and told her i was Hydrogen.
lol, she found out.
naki knows its a prank too.
i didnt prank abdhullah so i dont know abt that.
sathia was good. he believed.
but the best of them all was faaiz.
gosh, he really believed larh.
he called back and all to talk to "hasinah".
it was nice talking to him again.
just like old times.
but he's a flirt so a relationship with him wouldnt work.
he found out in the end.
the we started chatting on msn.
that shd be the end i guess.
i do kinda miss him though..
woke up today and immediately went to see my boy.
i told my parents abt my intentions of marrying my boy.
and they didnt object to it or anyth.
tnite will be spent with my boy again.
i love him to bits.
my boy's the best.

2007-06-07T16:05:00.000+08:00

super long since i blogged.
hols have started and hol lessons have ended.
like finally man.
but i have two re-exams to take.
and i havent started hmwk!
all i do is watch simbu movies.
time flies when i watch his movies man.
i miss Hydrogen a lot!
but what to do. haiz.
it isnt that bad larh..
coz simbu keeps me company all day long.
okay larh, thats enough abt him.
been really busy the past few weeks man.
lots of outings with friends.
im sick of town!
it feels like ive been going there everyday.
the gurls are coming over to my place tmrw.
as usual, gonna watch horror movie and scream our lungs out.
then eat and eat food like pigs.
followed by games i think.
so sad that some pple think that i will cause outrage to their modesty if they come over to my place.
ha ha ha!
oh yes, i need to cut my hair.
i could see us holding hands,
walking on the beach,
our toes in the sand.

2007-05-17T18:52:00.000+08:00

got back results already.
dont wish to say anyth abt it larh.
i mean, i really worked very hard man.
i gave up what was impossible to give up.
i didnt see her or her c__.
i didnt even note down her attire.
and all this coz i wanted to fully focus on studies.
but whats shocking is that i deproved.
perhaps she never was the problem in the first place.
usually when i do badly, i juz accept it and tell myself to work harder.
but this time, i cant accept it.
and i doubt if i can work any harder than this.

2007-05-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

Love can be a many splendid thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses Diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you’ll just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It’ll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was just once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all
My heart keeps calling
And I keep on falling
Over and over again

This sad story always ends the same
Me standing in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride

See your heart its in your soul
You wont remember control
See you’ve got no say at all
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie

does that answer all your questions sweetheart?

2007-04-29T20:05:00.000+08:00

the trouble with love is...
):

2007-04-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

The lessons you've been learning about love and relationships may have been difficult to learn, but they have enriched your life and brought you some mental clarity. More than ever before, you know what you want, what you need and (most importantly) what you will not put up with. Trust yourself, and know that you will be able to recognize a good opportunity -- and avoid a bad opportunity -- when it comes along. That little voice inside your head is the voice of truth.

have i ever mentioned how true friendster horoscopes are?
i've learnt my lesson abt relationships.
and it has indeed brought me mental clarity.
speaking of the voice..
when she was in class juz now, i swear i heard a voice inside me.
it didnt belong to me and it was trying hard to convince me.
it said "it's not love shamita."

2007-04-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

001. real name: SHAMITA
002. nickname: PSYCHO, MISS SULPHUR
003. single or taken : TAKEN
004. zodiac sign : PISCES
005. male or female : FEMALE
006. elementary : SVPS
007. high : CGS
008. college : -
009. eye color : BLACK
010. hair color : BLACK WITH BROWN STREAKS
011. long or short hair : LONG
012. shoe size : 8
013. asthma? : NOPES
014. are you health freak : NOPES
015. height : 1.69M
016. do you have a crush on someone: YEAH
017. do you like yourself: I LOVE MYSELF!
018. piercings : 2
019. tattoos : NOPES
020. righty or lefty: RIGHTY

FIRSTS:

022. first surgery : NOT YET
023. first piercing : AGE OF 4
024. first best friend : SATHIA (;
025. first movie : CANT RMB
026. First sport you joined: NEVER JOINED SPORTS
027. first pet : UHM..
028. first vacation : MSIA
029. first concert : CANT RMB
030. first crush : SATHIA

CURRENTLY :

031. eating : BEN AND JERRY'S
032. drinking : NOTHING
033. i am : PSYCHO
034. listening to : TEEVEE
035. waiting for : BOYFRIEND TO COME BACK
036. wearing : SHORTS AND TEE

YOUR FUTURE :

037. want kids? : THINK SO
038. want to get married? : I GUESS
039. careers in mind? : MEDICINE

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE
SEX? :

040. lips or eyes?: BOTH
041. hugs or kisses : HUGS
042. shorter or taller : TALLER

043. romantic or spontaneous : BOTH
044. stomach or arms : STOMACH
045. sensitive or loud: SENSITIVE
046. hook-up or relationship: RELATIONSHIP

HAVE YOU EVER :
047. kissed a stranger : YES
048. lost glasses/contacts: YES
049. ran away from home : KIND OF
050. broken any bones : NOPES
051. broken someone's heart : HAHA, NUMEROUS TIMES
052. been arrested : NOPES
053. turned someone down : HAHA, YUPS
054. cried when someone died : YEAH
055. liked a friend : DUH

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
056. yourself: I THINK SO
057. miracles : NOT REALLY
058. love at first sight : NO WAY
059. heaven : PROBABLY
060. santa claus : NAH
061. fairies : YES, COZ IM ONE
062. kissing on the first date: NOPES, BUT I'VE DONE IT
063. angels : YES, HYDROGEN IS ONE

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

064. Is there one or more people you
want to be with right now?
YEAH
065. Is Superman really better than
Batman?
BOTH SUCK
066. Have you had more than one
boyfriend/girlfriend at the same time?
HA HA HA!

2007-04-15T15:06:00.000+08:00

so the boyfriend's away for the weekend. ):
i juz came back from lot1.
there is a huge hole in my pocket after buying a new watch.
its a nike watch.
mummy paid half the price.
gosh, it costs a bomb.
but its gorgeous.
havent started studying tdae.
did hmwk and all ystrdae.
did i mention abt friday?
i wanted to show everyone that i dont like Hydrogen anymore.
so when she was in class i didnt really look at her.
then i hid inside the toilet to see her walk past.
and when i came out, she hadnt gone in.
she was talking to shamini.
i cant believe i juz walked off larh.
i didnt even bother to ask shamini what they talked abt.
sucha good improvement.
then as i was abt to go off, i heard her voice.
she was gonna wash.
and you knw, that was the end of my act.
i juz cannot make it larh. lol.
so i didnt get the video afterall. ):
and after that was crezawards.
it was pretty boring this year.
but when paul came, i went mad.
i was screaming i think. hee. :D
okay larh, i wanna go search for pics of ayesha takia now.
might blog again later.

2007-04-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

Today Did You-
-------------------

1. Talk to a boy/girl you like?
- yeah.

2. Learn anything new?
- yes.

3.Talked to an ex?
- uhm, nopes.

4.Miss someone?
- MY BOYFRIEND!

-Last Person Who-
------------------------

5.Laid in your bed?
- myself.

6. Made you cry?
- shd be Hydrogen.

7. You went to the movies with?
- cant rmb.

8. Went to the mall with you?
- dnoe larh.

9. You showered with?
- MY BOYFRIEND! kiddingg.

10. Made you laugh?
- Ponny.

11. Hugged you?
- MY BOIYFRIEND!

-General stuff-
-------------------

16. Favorite location?
- Library blk.

17.Tattoo?
- Nopes.

18. What are you most scared of this
second?
- cant complete hmwk.

19. Where do you want to get married?
- definitely not in a temple.

21. Does anyone like you?
- everyone does, haha.

22. Do you like being around people?
- i guess.

23.Have you ever cried?
- duhh.

24. Are you lonely right now?
- nope.

25. Song stuck in your head?
- that's when i love you.

26. Been on radio/TV?
- yups.

28. Ever liked someone who treated you
like crap?
- thats always the case.

30. what color shirt are you wearing
right now?
- white.

31. Name three things that you do every
day.
- see myself in the mirror, see myself in the mirror, see myself in the mirror.

32. How much cash do you have on you
right now?
- abt 20 bucks?

33. Are you bored?
- nopes.

38. What web site do you visit the
most?
- www.friendster.com

39. Do you have plants in your room?
- nopes.

41. Who was the last person to hug you?
- didnt i say MY BOYFRIEND?

-26 SECRETS-
---------------------

1.WHAT IS YOUR DISPLAY NAME ABOUT?

- secret larh.

2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE
TAKEN?
- school.

4.WHAT'S YOUR CURRENT RELATIONSHIP
STATUS?
- not answering. :/

5. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL
YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN?

- yeah but i prob wont believe.

6. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?

- irritated?

7. WHATS YOUR MOST VALUED POSSESSIONS?

- Paalbottle.

8. HOW ARE THINGS IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP?
- which relationship? (;

10. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND
CHANGE SOMETHING WOULD YOU?
- yeah. wouldnt wanna fall in love with anyone.

11. IF YOU MUST BE AN ANIMAL FOR ONE
DAY- WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
- orang utan!

12. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE?
- nopes. near rape experience, yeah man.

16. NAME SOMEONE WITH THE SAME B-DAY
AS YOU?
- vicky gurl, nivaash's sis

17. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A
LARGE AUDIENCE?
- nopes.

18. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE
ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX ?
- height i think.

19. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY ORDER FROM
STARBUCKS?
- dont usually go there.

20. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DRUNKEN WEEK?

- nopes.

21. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR
TV SHOWS?

- Sometimes.

24. DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE?
- Yeah.

25. IS THERE SOMEONE ON YOUR MIND NOW?

- YES!!!

26. WHAT HURTS YOU AT THE MOMENT?

- nothing.

2007-04-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

tdae was tiring.
was busy the whole time during lessons so couldnt really see her.
after school, went to the usual place to at least see her c__.
but it wasnt there.
obviously it wouldnt be.
its not like she'll wait for me rite?
instead of the c__, i was greeted with a mineral water bottle.
thought she was the one who threw it away.
so i picked it up.
and yes, it was hers.
there was a paper inside.
silly me thought that Hydrogen left a note for me.
it was a receipt.
aiya, i dont give a damn anymore larh.
i need to do hmwk now coz i wanna watch man u match tnite.
or tmrw morn rather. -shrugs.

2007-04-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

school tmrw..
am i sposed to be happy or sad?
i havent finished hmwk larh.
and guru is nice. (:

2007-04-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

i cant stand him.
absolutely cant stand that loser.
i was being so nice to him.
asked him how he was and stuff.
i swear i didnt know what the hell i was thinking.
i mean, i told him to get lost.
then why do i hafta ask him how he is?
why shd it even matter to me, for god's sake.
and his replies really pissed me off.
his tone was so.. condescending. [gosh, sounds so SS]
it really brought me over the edge.
in fact, im still very pissed now.
i wanna unblock him at MSN and scream at him.
use all the vulgarities i know on him.
and faaiz is online.
oh abt faaiz.
he's this guy living arnd my area larh.
everytime i go to the shops nearby, i'll see him arnd.
he looks punjabi, but apparently he's not.
anw, ive always thought he looks good.
and surprise surprise, he finds my profile at Friendster.
and tada! he added me on Friendster and MSN.
so he's finally online now.
oh did i mention abt last night?
it was horrendous.
i was exhausted so i fell aslp. [thinking abt Hydrogen of course]
then close to midnight, mummy came back and woke me up.
i was so sleepy that i cant rmb what happened.
i only rmb going down the stairs.
i juz followed behind her as she walked.
then we went to Macs.
you knw, i was staggering coz i felt groggy.
and i was wearing black winnie the pooh pyjamas, my hair untied.
to be honest, i think i looked like a baby pontianak.
and guess who i saw at Macs?
Valentino.
what a way to meet the ex.
and it juz had to be the most handsome ex rite.
he smiled and i think i smiled too.
thats the end of the fairytale.
was watching the roma vs man u match at Macs.
Hydrogen was right larh.
the police using the baton on the United supporters was horrible.
i mean, some of them were bleeding so profusely. goodness.
coming back to the issue, im very unhappy.
okay, i shouldnt get impulsive man.
BUT IM SO DAMN UNHAPPY WITH THAT ************* LOSER.
I WISH I NEVER MET THAT *** ** * *****.
STUPID HAZIE, ALL YOUR FAULT.
ARGH!

2007-04-05T19:37:00.000+08:00

tdae was terrible.
cramps were killing me man.
i was sitting down in the train all the way.
then cabbed to sch.
we were so freaking late tdae.
and then i was kinda scared during assembly.
Hydrogen was apparently "creating an image for herself" by scaring pple.
haha. but if you think abt it aft that, its kinda cool larh.
lessons were spent in pain.
ms azlin didnt come tdae. -rolls eyes.
i didnt really think abt the cramps larh.
i was eagerly anticipating the wash.
at 0315, i saw her at the usual place.
i didnt even wear my shoes man.
i sprinted to class, packed up and left.
by then, she left.
i was so sad man.
really really wanted to wash.
plus its hol tmrw.
called her and asked her abt it larh.
she had some work to do..
i wanted to complain and complain and let it all out.
but i didnt wanna bother her.
as much as i dont wanna disturb her, i think i shd think abt myself too.
i mean, how long am i gonna be living this way?
every weekend, i feel the pain and longing for her.
what the fck is wrong in msging/calling, you tell me.
haiz, its really pointless talking abt it larh.
for one, im never gonna pluck up the courage to tell her that.
and neither does she read my blog nowadays.
so its pointless.
anw, on a lighter note, i was taking several tests juz now.
and this one is so freaking true larh.
it really reflected a lot of things.
feel free to try it pple.

http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=573481

till then, chaoz.

2007-03-31T21:47:00.000+08:00

you're like a drop of rain in the desert, Hydrogen.
i dont hafta say i love you again rite?
im sure you know i do. (:

2007-03-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

learning fest tdae was boring.
or maybe its coz we didnt have much time to walk arnd.
had to dress up and practice for reel art.
reel art went okay.
we won the 3rd prize.
we didnt really work hard to win larh.
juz didnt wanna let the class down.
and i think we did a good job.
Hydrogen says that we shd have won the 1st prize.
so to me, i've won the 1st prize already. (:
went to Hydrogen's desk aft sch.
didnt spend much time though.
then went to jurong.
ate and went back home.
im so bloody tired.
but i cant sleep.
i have no idea why.
anyways, i need to go and get my baby boy now.
so chaoz.
and yes, tdae is the first time i gave Hydrogen a flying kiss when she was looking.
and tdae is the first time we took a pic tgether.
shes love.

2007-03-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

i think i really need to open up a little.
im not that comfortable with Hydrogen anymore.
or else why cant i juz tell her how i feel?
i guess i'll leave a note in her desk this saturday when she brings me in.
but im not gonna tell her abt it.
tdae wasnt good larh.
i reached sch at 0630 to get her tee.
but had to return her in the end. )):
now i have nothing to put over my bolster and sleep with.
clutching a plastic milkbottle to sleep isnt comfortable.
i want smth more.. real.
since i cant hug you to sleep, cant i even have your tee Hydrogen?
then the "its ok" msg you sent juz now is so upsetting.
can you make it even more obvious that we shouldnt be msging?
tsk, i really miss you larh.
going for night study tmrw. hmm.
oh did i mention?
abdhullah is so fcking irritating.
i really hate it that every single thing related to me, he'll tell hazie.
its nothing against hazie larh.
but i find it so immature.
juz tells me that he knows nuts abt relationships.
what a waste of time.
be like me pple. (:
carry mineral water bottles and run aft your loved one.
then give her the drink secretly and ask her to walk off before someone sees.
ha ha ha!
okay larh, i shant hate abdhullah so much.
what goes around, comes around.
but one more time i hear from him, he's screwed.

2007-03-29T22:39:00.000+08:00

A
[ ] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[x] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[x] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces
or crowds.
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or
pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a
car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of choking.
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or
society.
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being
touched.
[ ] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[x] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and
lightening.
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or
untidiness.
[ ] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[x] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[x] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

B
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[x] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or
steep slopes.
[x] Batrachophobia - Fear of
amphibians.
[x] Belonephobia - Fear of pins and
needles.
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[x] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[x] Catagelophobia - Fear of being
ridiculed.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of
clocks.
[ ] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined
spaces.
[ ] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[x] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[x] Entomophobia - Fear of insects.
[ ] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[ ] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[x] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in
public.
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[ ] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[x] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[x] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[ ] Homophobia- Fear Of Homosexuals
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[ ] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[x] Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

K
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[ ] Leukophobia - Fear of the color
white.
[ ] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes
and
hurricanes.
[x] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[ ] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ] Melanophobia - Fear of the color
black.
[ ] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[ ] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and
germs.

N
[x] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead
things.
[ ] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night
[ ] Nosocomephobia - Fear of
hospitals.

O
[ ]Obesophobia - Fear of gaining
weight.
[ ] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[ ] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[x] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[ ] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.
[ ] Ostroconaphobia - Fear of seafood.

P
[ ] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[x] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[ ] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[ ] Phobophobia - Fear of phobias.
[ ] Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[ ] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color
purple.
[ ] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[ ] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of
flying.
[ ] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[ ] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[x] Sociophobia - Fear of social
evaluation.
[ ] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[ ] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[ ] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[x] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[x] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.

V-Z
[ ] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful
women.
[ ] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[x] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and
witchcraft.
[ ] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or
foreigners.
[ ] Zoophobia - Fear of animals.

I've got 25 phobias.

2007-03-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

actually i blogged a really long post in the afternoon.
but i decided to delete it coz its kinda personal to put on the web.
and sharing it will lead to the relationship losing its special feel.
plus, it was kinda obvious who it was about.
and it'll be trouble for the both of us.
so i deleted it.
juz finished doing the pirate hat for reel art.
im proud of myself, though the hat isnt exactly perfect.
went to sembawang juz now.
had to get all the baking stuffs coz i'll be baking tmrw.
a pretty pretty cake for my pretty pretty woman.
and then for friends also larh.
bought glitter to use as fairydust also.
gosh, im bored now.
and i miss Hydrogen larh.
tsk, been thinking of her quite a bit tdae.
its okay, juz 31 hours to go. (:

2007-03-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

so today was good.
no points for guessing why.
haha.
the day wasnt exactly long either.
but it was good.
juz like old times man.
how much i miss talking to her.
and washing also larh.
but what she said is kinda disturbing.
she said that it has been going on for long and its abt time to move on.
how do i move on?
i mean, i cant do it.
and even if i can, i wouldnt do it.
coz i love you too much to move on Hydrogen.
and you must get used to me torturing you okay? hahha.
the part abt the good-natured thing is also bothering me.
from today onwards, im gonna be good-natured.
i know i can larh.
i mean, i totally stopped flirting and all successfully after the last time.
so what makes pple think i cant do it this time round? hehs.
actually, i think i shd have asked her the reason why we cant msg/talk much.
its hard to ask these kinda things coz im afraid her replies will upset me.
and i had a dream abt her juz now man.
it was good, but never gonna be true larh.
its raining!
omg good to sleep!
okay then, nites world.
♥ هممليني; with every breath i take.

2007-03-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

so now i have TWO pple who love me.
and im not sure to what extent its true.
i'll blog abt it tmrw i guess.
im seeing her tmrw after NINE freaking days.
but i cant be bothered larh.
shucks, abdhullah is right.
im being ambivalent.
okay, ugly betty is coming on soon.
gotta go.

2007-03-11T13:19:00.000+08:00

1. When you look at yourself in the
mirror in the morning, what's the
first thing you say?
- wow you look so pretty!

2. How much cash do you have on you?
- abt 30 bucks?

3. What's a word that rhymes
with "TEST"?
- pest?

4. Favorite planet?
- jupiter.

5. Who is the 4th person on your
missed call list on your cell phone?
- HoMe.

6. What is your main ring tone on your
phone?
- aanantham.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
- espirit top.

8. Do you "label" yourself?
- yes.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're
currently wearing?
- converse.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
- dark.

11. What were you doing at midnight
last night?
- watching JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE.

12. What did your last text message
you received say?
- whats your fave colour?

13. What's a saying that you say a lot?
- its all love.

14. Who told you they loved you last?
- bestie!

15. Last furry thing you touched?
- pooh bear.

16. How Many Drugs Have You Done In
The Past three Days?
- none.

17. How many rolls of film do you need
to get developed?
- two.

18. Favorite age you have been so far?
- sixteen.

19. Your worst enemy?
- anyone who likes hydrogen.

20. What is your current desktop
picture?
- john abraham.

21. What was the last thing you said
to someone?
- for me?

22. If you had to choose between a
million bucks or to be able to change
a major regret?
- no major regrets. so million bucks.

23. Do you like someone?
- yesh.

24. The last song you listened to?
- dole dole.

2007-03-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

#01. Would you mind if your guy is
fat?
- yes.

#02. Would you want your guy to do
house chores?
- definitely.

#03. What is the maximum age gap you
and your guy have?
- im single.

#04. Would you mind if your guy
smokes?
- duh.

#05. Must he get good grades?
- i guess.

#06. A muscular/mature guy or a
childish/cute guy?
- muscular and mature.

#07. Must he be popular to suit you?
- nah.

#08. Would you allow your guy to join
gang?
- i'll prefer if he doesnt.

#09. Must he have perfect eyesight?
- not neccessarily.

#10. Must he be perfect in everything?
- i like imperfect pple.

#11. Will you be furious OR worried if
your guy gets into trouble with the
DM?
- worried.

#12. Must he be taller than you?
- yes!

#13. What is the first thing abt him that attracted you?
- hmm, looks?

#14. Does how much he loves you matter
or as long as you love him is enough?
- he shd love me more than how much i love him.

#15. Would you allow your guy to show
tantrums on the elderly or worthy of
respect?
- obviously no.

#16. What if your guy's ex still loves
him?
- i'll bitch abt her.

#17. Which of his character or looks
will make you leave him?
- unfaithfulness.

#18. Must you be his first girlfriend?
- not neccessarily.

19. After marriage, must you be
together or follow him back to his
country?
- uhm.

#20. What will you do if his friends
bully him?
- persuade him to find other friends.

#21. What is the most important thing
you seek in your guy?
- devotion.

22. Would you rather your guy be a
studious or bad boy kind?
- studious.

#23. What if your good friend likes
your guy?
- ask her to fck off.

2007-03-10T13:53:00.000+08:00

Do you prefer to sleep or talk to a
friend when it gets boring in class?
- talk.

Do you wave hi with a smile or a
serious face?
- smile larh.

One thing that you like about your
house?
- my room.

The last time you cried, is it because
of someone?
- yes.

Chocolate ice cream or chocolate bar?
- choc bar!

What's the good thing about schooling?
- fantastic teachers.

Last song you downloaded?
- nothing.

Worms or cockroaches?
- NEITHER!

Yawn with your eyes open or closed?
- not sure.

If you can have a choice, would you
prefer to be friends or attached with
someone you love now?
- attached.

In one word, describe your day:
- crazy.

What website(s) do you have open?
- blogger.

You listen to music when you are..
- happy, sad, etc.

What song are you listening to now?
- nothing.

The latest news you've received?
- im gonna be tinkerbell!

Last clothing item you bought?
- bdae dress.

Name 5 things you have around you:
- tablet, handphone, bag, remote, pencil case

What can't you live without?
- handphone.

Who can't you live without?
- HYDROGEN.

State the date, day and time at this
moment:
- 10 Mar, Sat, 1:58pm.

What do people think when they first
meet you?
- how am i sposed to knw?

What color is your hair?
- black with a lil copper red.

Natural/dyed?
- copper red is dyed.

What was the last book you bought?
- cant rmb.

Do you like reading?
- yes.

Do you like answering surveys?
- nopes.

Last thing you did?
- one of these quizzes.

Two things that people don't know
about you?
- i dnoe.

Are you a frequent user of Friendster?
- yeah.

COMPLETE THESE SENTENCES

I like it when...
i spend time alone with hydrogen.

I love it when..
hydrogen is arnd me.

I want to..
kiss hydrogen then run!

2007-03-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

Are you wearing a necklace?
- nopes.

Do you like someone right now?
- yes.

Who is/are the main person(s) you talk
to at school?
- hazie, shamini, nivaash, sofia, hasinah, hydrogen.

Is your room clean?
the table, no.

What colour is your shirt?
- cream.

What song are you listening to?
- aashiqi meri.

What was the last mall you went to?
- ck tangs.

Are you alone?
- in the hall, yes.

Do you have any older siblings?
- nopes.

What is the last thing you ate?
- macs, 2 days ago.

Who was the last person to come over to
your house?
- uhm, maid's sister.

Who was the last person to call you?
- deva.

Who was the last to text you?
- a secret admirer.

What should you be doing?
- resting.

Who is the last person you sent a
message to?
- nivaash.

Did you go out to eat yesterday?
- nopes.

Random lyrics?
- when you laugh at your own jokes, i love you.

What colour are your pants?
- RED (:

What colour is your keyboard?
- grey.

What do you feel like eating/drinking?
- anyth edible.

Are you in college?
- nopes.

What did the last text you sent said?
- can i be tinkerbell? haha.

Are you bored?
- why else would i be doing this?

Do you wear glasses?
- yes.

What colour are your shoes?
- black & white.

Who do you love?
- me, myself and i.

What are you doing right now?
- this thingy.

Do you like Llamas?
- huh?

Do you know how to spell bananas?
- bananas.

What were the last words you said?
- we'll think abt it later.

Do you have clothes on?
- ya larh!

Do you have boxers on?
- nopes, im using undies.

Do you have a cut on your index
finger?
- nopes.

Where is your cell phone?
- beside me.

Do you have any friends named Skyler?
- uh, no.

Do you have any friends named Axel?
- no.

Are you afraid of the dark?
- depends on the place.

Did you used to watch POKEMON?
- yeah, haha.

Does your computer have a mouse?
- touchpad.

Whats your cell phone's ring tone?
- unakkum enakkum aanantham, vidiya vidiya sontham
padukkai araiyil aarambam, puthiya puthiya inbam. (;

First thing you did in the morning?
- check my handpone.

Do you have anything bothering you?
- nopes.

What's annoying you right now?
- nothing.

What's the last movie you watched?
- dream girls.

Do you believe in long distance
relationships?
- possible.

Is there a person who is on your mind
right now?
- yeah.

Do you think that that person is
thinking of you too?
- that would require a miracle.

more more to come. (:

2007-03-10T13:03:00.001+08:00

i think im addicted to these stuffs.

1. Name - shamita, miss.sulphur
2. Religion - hindu
3. Single/Taken - single
4. Zodiac Sign – goat arh?
5. Male/Female – female
6. School – crescent girls
7. Bag – Nike
9. MSN Name – mascara and eyeliner smudges everywhere;
10. Hair Color – black with a lil bit of copper red
12. Hair Long/Short – long
14. Eye Color – black
15. Health Freak – nah
16. Height – 168, jealous?
17. Do you have a crush on someone? - quite a number
18. Do you like yourself? - i LOVE myself
19. Braces - i've got perfect teeth
21. Piercing - one pair
22. Tattoo - nopes
23. Righty or Lefty - right

___YOUR FIRSTS___
24. Surgery – none
25. First piercing – when i was 3/4 years old
26. First best friend – sathia, haha!
27. First Award – model pupil?
28. First Sport You Joined – none
29. First pet – hamster
30. First Vacation – cant rmb
31. First Concert - cant rmb
32. First love – HYDROGEN <3

___FAVOURITES___
33. Movie – a lot larh
34. Favorite TV Show - desperate housewives!
35. Colour – black and red
36. Music – a lot
39. Drink - green tea
41. Sport To Play - soccer
42. Favorite piece of clothing - jeans
43. Brand - hmm, roxy
44. What do you sleep with? - baby pillow and bolster
45. Favorite School - cgs
46. Favorite Animal – orang utans

___CURRENTLY___
49. Im eating – nothing
50. Im drinking – nothing
52. Im about to ring – nobody
53. Listening to – nothing
55. Waiting For – party tmrw, i hafta eat
56. Watching - nothing
57. Wearing – England shorts, teddy bear tee
58. Want Kids? – clueless 59. Want to Get Married? - clueless
60. Careers in Mind – doctor, teacher, housewife

___RANDOM___
68. Lips or Eyes - eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses – kisses
70. Shorter or Taller - taller
72. Romantic, Spontaneous – romantic
73. nice stomach or nice arms - stomach
74. Sensitive or Loud – sensitive
75. Hook-up or Relationship - relationship
76. Sweet or caring – both
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? - hesitatnt

___HAVE YOU EVER___
78. Kissed a Stranger - nopes
79. Drank bubbles – huh?
80. Lost glasses/contacts – yeah
81. Ran Away From Home – yes
82. Broken a bone – nopes
83. Got an X-ray – nah
84. Broken Someones Heart – numerous guys
87. Cried When Someone Died – duh

___DO YOU BELIEVE IN___
89. God – yes
90. Miracles – theres still hope
93. Aliens – maybe 94. Magic – uh, no
95. Heaven – yeah 97. Sex on the first date – that's a NO
98. Kissing on the First Date - yeah
99. Angels – angels in disguise, yes (;

___ANSWER TRUTHFULLY___
100. Is there someone you want to be with right now? - yeah

more to come. (:

2007-03-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

changes

2001

How old were you?
> 10.

Where did you go to school?
> south view primary.

Where did you work?
> no where.

Where did you live?
> cck.

Where did you hang out?
> dont think i hung out.

How was your hair style?
> bob, hahaha!
gross.

Did you wear braces?
> nahh.

Did you wear glasses?
> yeah.

How many tattoos did you have?
> none.

How many piercings did you have?
> 2.

What car did you drive?
> you must be joking.

What was your favorite band/group:
> none.

Worst fear?
> failing tests/exams.

Gotten drunk?
> nope.

Had you driven yet?
> nope.

Had you been arrested?
> no. -.-

Had you been to a real party yet?
> no.

Had your heart broken?
> nopes.

**HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE
NOW !!!!!**

2007

How old are you?
> 16 this year.

What grade are you in?
> sec 4.

school?
> crescent girls.

Where do you work?
> no where.

Where do you live?
> cck, spore.

Where do you hang out?
> the lib block in sch, lol.

Do you have braces?
> nope.

Do you wear glasses?
> at home.

Still talk to any of your old friends?
> not really.

Who is your celebrity crush?
> none.

How many piercings do you have?
> 2.

How many tattoos?
> none.

What kind of car do you have?
> a silver ***** 3.

What is your favorite band/group?
> no faves.

What is your biggest fear?
> heights.

Have you gotten drunk?
> juz once.

Have you been arrested since if so how
many times total?
> of course not.

Has your heart been broken?
> it's always being broken.

i think i've done a lot of these thingys coz of boredom.
im gonna sleep now.
gdnite, world.

2007-03-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

GUY-ISH
[x] you own a jersey
[ ] you like being sweaty
[ ] you love mud
[ ] you've played at least one sport on
a team
[ ] you've played more than 1 sport for
fun
[ ] you hate pink
[ ] you love hoodies and jeans
[x] pranks are fun
[x] dogs are better than cats
[ ] its funny when people get hurt

total = 3

[ ] shopping is torture
[ ] pulling heads off dolls isn’t
creepy..its fun
[ ] you dont cry
[ ] sad movies suck
[ ] girl drama is stupid
[ ] painting your nails is weird/stupid
[ ] you own a psp
[ ] you own an xbox
[ ] you own a gamecube
[ ] you like to watch porn
[x] you like sexy girls
Total = 1

[ ] you used to be obsessed with power
rangers
[] you watch sports center
[x] you watch sports on tv sometimes
[ ] gorey movies are the best!
[ ] you arent scared of anything
[ ] you take part in "male bonding"
[] you only go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball
caps
[ ] you're not sensitive
[] no pain no gain

Total = 1

[ ] you like going to football games
[ ] night games rock
[ ] spiders and bugs are cool
[ ] you like to freak out your sister or
brother
[] you used to or do collect basketball
cards
[ ] saggy pants are cool
[] you get sports illustrated/other
sports/ guy magazine
[ ] fire is cool
[ ] you don't babysit
[x] you're immature

Total = 1

[ ] its kinda weird to have sleepovers
with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red or blue or
silver are your favorite color(s)
[] romantic comedies are boring
[] you hate dressing up
[ ] you dont care about your hair
[ ] you love to go crazy and not care
what people think
[ ] climbing is fun
[ ] contact sports like football are fun

total = 0

Now add the numbers up and x2.

GIRL-ISH

[x] you wear lip gloss.
[x] you shop
[x] you wear eyeliner
[x] you buy different colored shirts
[x] you wear halters and tube tops

total: 5

[] you dont like shopping at hot topic
[x] you wear the color pink
[] you consider cheerleading a sport
[] you hate wearing the color black
[x] you love hanging at the mall

total: 2

[x] you like getting manicures and/or
pedicures
[] you wear jewellery
[x] skirts are a part of your wardrobe
[x] you take a long time doing your
hair
[x] shopping is one of your favorite
hobbies

total: 4

[x] you hate the movie star wars
[x] you cry in movies
[x] you are/were in cheerleading,
gymnastics, or dance
[x] it takes you more than 1/2 hour to
get dressed and put on other accesories
[x] you smile a lot more than u should

total: 5

Add them up and x5.

I AM 12% GUYISH AND 80% GIRLISH.

2007-03-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

Girl Confessions
[x] I'm not easy.
[x] I do wear make up
[x] When I walk by mirrors, I can't
help but look.
[x] I wear toe nail polish.
[x] I have cried at a movie theater
[x] I've purposely talked to a guy my
boyfriend didn't like.
[ ] I love chocolate covered pretzels.
[x] Getting a flower makes me smile,
especially for no reason.
[ ] I've wrecked a car.
[x] I can't put mascara on without
opening my mouth.
[x] I'd do (almost)anything for a
special person.
[x] I love cuddling.
[x] I think Johnny Depp is hot in
Pirates.
[ ] I've gotten suspended
[XXX] I love to laugh.
[ ] I like rock.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like techno
[ ] I carry a purse.
[x] I've been called a party girl.
[ ] I did own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I did own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] Football isn't boring.
[x] I love athletic people
[x] I love skater boys.
[ ] I love ghetto boys.
[x] I love emo boys.
[ ] Sweet guys are better than hot
guys.
[ ] I've been called a tease.
[x] Lip gloss is better than lipstick.
[ ]I can't leave the house without
makeup.
[ ] I'm a bitch. Deal with it.
[ ] I play video games, even when there
are other people around.
[x] My friends are the best, and
they're VERY important to me.
[XXX] I can be crazy.
[x] I really want to be with a certain
someone right now.
[ ] I smoke way too much
[ ] I have a tattoo or I want one
[ ] I have been to more than 5
concerts (co concerts that is XP)

2007-03-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

1. How's your heart lately?
still beating.

2. When was the last time you went
out?
after sch tdae.

3. What was the latest movie you saw ?
dream girls.

4. where was the last place you went
to?
my room.

5. Miss someone?
nopes.

6. What made you smile today ?
hydrogen. <3

7. The last time you fell in love ?
at 1040 this morn, haha.

8. Ever love someone so deep ?
uhm.

9. What is your status right now ?
single and unavailable.

10. Did you dream last night ?
nightmare! shamini loves hydrogen! [in my dream of course]

11. What are you doing this morning at
7am?
walking to sch.

12. what are you doing this morning at
10am ?
staring at mrs gek.

13. which is a country you will never
want to visit ?
uhm, i dnoe.

14. How many piercings do you have ?
only 2.

15. What is the last thing you ate ?
apple.

16. What song are you listening to
right now ?
none.

17. Who is your bestest friend of the
opposite sex ?
not close to the opp sex in a friend kinda way.

18. Do you have a nick name ?
miss sulphur.

19. Things you need to do everyday ?
i must see hydrogen!

20. Are you a type of person who easily
gets hurt ?
unfortunately, yes.

21. The last thing you said to one of
your friends ?
thanks.

22. The last person who called you?
deva.

23. The last person that you chat with
online ?
hazie.

24. The last person you talked with?
mummy.

25. What cant you live without ?
hydrogen. i really cant.

26. What things you want to do now ?
do more of these crap.

2007-03-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

1.The phone rings. Who do you want it
to be?
hydrogen.

2. When shopping at the grocery store,
do you return your cart?
i dont really use carts.

3. In a social setting, are you more
of a talker or a listener?
listener.

4. If abandoned alone in the
wilderness, would you survive?
no.

5. Do you like to ride horses?
never tried before.

6. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
yeah.

7. What was your favorite board game
as a kid?
uh, snake and ladder?

8. If a sexy person was pursuing you,
but you knew he/she was taken what
would you do?
have a fling. or maybe not.

9. Are you judgmental?
dont think so.

10. Would you date someone with
different religious beliefs?
religion is not a prob in love.

11. Are you continuing your education?
uhm.

12. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
clueless.

13. If your house was on fire, what's
the first thing you'd grab?
my handphone and milkbottle and baby pillow.

14. How often do you read books?
not often. cant find the time.

15. Do you think more about the past,
present or future?
past.

16. What is your favorite children's
books?
enid blyton's.

17. Have you kissed any of your
MySpace/Friendster friends?
i guess.

18. How tall are you?
taller then hydrogen, haha. 168cm.

19. Where is your ideal house located?
the place where hydrogen is.

20. Last person you talked to?
deva.

21. Have you ever taken pictures in a
photo booth?
yeah.

22. When was the last time you were at
Olive Garden?
what's that again?

23. What are your keys on your key
chains for?
i dont have a key chain.

24. What did you do last night?
watched the arena and read a book.

25. Where is your current pain at?
huh?

26. Do you like mustard?
not reallu.

27. Do you like your mom or dad?
both are blessed with their own unique attributes.

28. How long does it take you in the
shower?
15 to 25 mins.

29. What movie do you want to see
right now?
John Tucker Must Die.

30. Do you put lotion on your dog or
cats?
i dont own one. and that's a sadistic thing to do btw.

31. What did you do for New Year's?
went to a countdown party and shopped at Vivo.

32. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
yeah. the jap version was scarier.

33. Do you own a camera phone?
yeah. i absolutely LOVE my phone.

34. What's the last letter of your
middle name?
hmm, g?

35. Who did you vote for on American
Idol?
i dont watch american idol.

36. How many hours of sleep do you get
a night?
depends on the workload. if theres not much work, then 10-12 hours.

37. Do you like care bears?
uh, what's that?

38. Do you know how to play poker?
nope.

39. Do you wear your seatbelt?
if i rmb.

40. What do you wear to sleep?
shorts and tee.

41. Any big event happened in your
hometown?
is my hometown spore?

42. Is your tongue pierced?
i wish.

43. Who's the funniest person you know?
myself.

44. Do you like funny or serious
people better?
funny.

45. Ever been to Vegas?
nah.

46. Did you eat a cookie today?
nope.

47. Do you use cuss words in other
languages?
dont think so.

48. Do you steal or pay for your music
downloads?
what do you think?

49. When was the last time you said "i
love you" and meant it?
as long as the "i love you" is for hydrogen, i mean it.

51. Is your cell usually on vibrate or
ring?
vibrator.

52. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend?
i need a womanfriend, haha.

2007-03-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i blogged.
finally got back my tablet pc after ONE AND A HALF MONTHS.
how inefficient.
my diet is a complete fiasco.
im so gonna look awful in my bdae dress.
sch ended early tdae.
hazie, shamini, nivaash and i cabbed to lido.
we watched dream girls.
more like they watched actually.
its a lousy movie.
i was juz msging and hanging on the phone throughout the movie.
and jennifer hudson's "singing" was giving me a terrible headache.
after 5 days, hydrogen smiled tdae.
and after she left, i was jumping up and down. literally.
im really concerned abt her health larh.
read up on her health probs juz now.
her health is seriously deteriorating. ):
hydrogen, you must be arnd for years and years okay?
only then will my love for you be true, rmb?

2007-03-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

tdae sucked.
and tmrw will too.
was i rude to her?
if i was, its only because im so irritated by her actions.
theres a difference btwn being irritated with her actions and being irritated with her btw.
omg guess what?
the sec4s were coming up to me and asking me if i wrote her name and mine in the phy lab table.
i couldnt rmb doing so and i dont vandalise in pen.
and i absolutely dont write the name as it is.
but i thought maybe i did do it in a senseless state.
you know how dreamy i can get at times.
but i went to the phy lab and got the shock of my life.
someone wrote her name, next to mine, and my class beside it.
IN PEN! goodness.
obviously i cleared it off.
wonder who did it.
anw, coming back to tdae, it sucked.
its an advance bdae gift frm her i guess.
thanks, hydrogen.

2007-02-24T19:29:00.000+08:00

i juz need a little time to sleep.
and i cant get it.
i hate mugging.
i only love myself.

2007-02-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

BEST
1. Female Friend: a few actually.
2. Vacation: any vacation to meet my lovely family in Msia (:
3. Time of day: every moment that i see her. <3
4. Day of the week: Wednesdays, haha.

LAST
1. Person(s)you saw: my maid
2. Talked to: Sofia
3. Hugged: cant rmb, hmm, more like cant say.
4. Texted: guess who? Hydrogen. <3
5. IM: Sathia

TODAY
1. What are you doing now: this?
2. Wearing: black shorts with garfield tee

TOMORROW
1. Is: 24 feb 2007, hahha
2. Got any plans: studying at je lib with friends
3. Goal: below 12 points for O's
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: cant see Hydrogen, tsk ):

FAVES
1. Number(s): 3, 25, 8
2. Color: black and red
3. Season: autumn

CURRENTLY
1. Missing someone: perhaps a little.
2. Mood: stressed
3. Wanting: a reply from her, even if she did go out with that *toot*
4. listening to: the rumbling of the fan

TRUE/FALSE
I am a cuddler: true
I am a perfectionist: false, juz a wannabe.
I am left handed: false
I am addicted to friendster: false
I bite my nails: when im stressed, nervous, tensed or worried.
I can be paranoid at times: true
I enjoy country music: depends.
I enjoy jazz music: false
I enjoy smoothies: true
I enjoy talking on the phone: true
I have a hard time paying attention: true
I have a lot to learn: very true
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: true
I have all my grandparents: false
I have at least one brother and/orsister: false
I have a good sense of humor: true, to a certain extent
I have had broken a bone: false
I have told someone I loved them and didn't mean it: true
I have told someone I loved them and meant it: true

common tests tdae were good.
except for lit which again, i didnt study for.
i was so stressed juz now larh.
i sat outside the classroom alone, cramming up bio stuffs for the paper.
if not for the pretty woman in the opposite classroom, i'd have broken down.
lots to study this weekend.
gosh, i really need to push myself and study even harder.
must strive for distinctions.
okay my pizza is calling me now.
gotta go have dinner.
chaoz.

2007-02-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

revising geog now.
but im not really focussing.
she came in tdae.
and i didnt want her to see my face larh.
or else she'll be reminded abt the incident what.
my life's in a mess rite now.
the relationships so complicated.
relationship with mummy juz sucks.
i havent spoken to her since she went off overseas.
and did i mention?
she went off without telling me.
relationship with daddy is not any better.
he juz calls up everyday and enquires abt me.
he doesnt talk to me, he juz enquires from MY MAID.
and i have no idea where the hell is he.
relationship with guy SPACE friends is deteriorating.
which is kinda good i guess.
but that also means that ive got no distractions.
and that brings me to the most disturbing thing.
the relationship with hydrogen. [does it even exist?]
i called her last night.
i was juz so disturbed by evrything and you knw, i had this feeling that something bad was gonna happen.
i couldnt concentrate on studying at all and i really needed her.
but she said she was busy so i juz let it go.
and she didnt msg or call aft that larh.
fine, i knw i shdnt expect things frm her.
thats why im not blaming her.
to summarize it all, ive lost hope.
and the feeling of losing hope is a sadness i cant explain.
beneath the fake smiles and laughter, there is smth more.
i mean, cmon larh, ive held on for a year plus.
and we are nowhere near close.
i think its time i gave up anw.
each time we msg/talk, it upsets me a lot.
at the end of the convo, she said "see u on wed" when it was only sunday larh.
it juz makes me feel so disappointed, angry and upset.
actually whats the point of talking abt this?
i might as well spend time studying smth.
im so sure im gonna screw common tests.
i cant seem to concentrate larh.
with a disturbed mind and heart, im definitely gonna screw it.
and that will juz add on to my worries.
im sorry and i love you hydrogen.

2007-02-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

so she did come to sch tdae.
how sweet of her to let me know beforehand that shes coming juz coz i was so restless without seeing her and having difficulties sleeping and studying and surviving, as a matter of fact.
how sweet.
oh, do note the sarcasm.
the withdrawal symptoms of this ridiculous addiction is unbearable.
goodbye, world.
till we meet again.

2007-02-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

valentine's day.
im missing her so much man.
we didnt even spend 10 mins tgether.
im so disappointed larh.
im in sucha terrible mood.
tsk.

2007-02-11T12:50:00.000+08:00

after a long, long time i cried myself to sleep last night.
no larh, not her fault.
i owe her for the many days she sent me to bed smiling.
juz realised that some things are so hard to get.
tdae is for studying.
haha.
coz i spent the whole of ystrdae shopping for v day gifts.
i think i shd juz let the guys knw that its not for ya'll.
ha ha ha! ;D
still gotta get chocs on tuesday and im ready.
but im darn afraid larh.
like, how am i gonna give it to her?
can i say what i want to?
which is, "happy v day sweetheart"
i dont think so.
i dnoe larh.
juz go there and do it i guess.
oh, hows the new blogskin arh?
planning to put password at my blog.
im still thinking abt it.
okay larh, gotta get back to the books now.
tsk.

2007-02-10T13:48:00.000+08:00

FIRST HUG ON 09 FEB 2006!

one hug took her a year okay.
so not easy to get larh.
how long will it take to get love?

2007-01-27T11:31:00.000+08:00

Different Types Of Love
1)If you love some one because you think that he or she is really gorgeous,then it's not love.
It's"INFATUATION".

2)If you love some one because you think that you shouldn't leave him or her because others think that you shouldn't,then it's not love.

It's"COMPROMISE".

3)If you love some one because you cannot leave him or her thinking that it would hurt his or her feelings,then it's not love.

It's"CHARITY".

4)If you love some one because you share every thing with him or her,then it's not love.

It's"FRIENDSHIP".

BUT
1)If you feel the pain of the other person more than him or her even when he or she is stable and you cry for him or her,that's"LOVE".

2)If you get attracted to other people but stay with him or her with out any regrets,that's"LOVE".

3)If you let him or her go knowing that he or she has to go but he or she doesn't want to,that's"LOVE".

and i love you hydrogen.

2007-01-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i blogged.
im kinda free tdae. haha.
sch was good tdae.
im happy. ;D
not much hmwk.
aft sch, went to swensens ystrdae.
hazie treated us. XD
then went tot iong aft sch tdae.
it was raning so heavily larh.
and guess who smiled at me at the foyer?
HAHAHA.
hazie has got a new crush.
and so do i.
okay larh, its getting late.
gotta get to bed and get sleep.
so that i'll look my best tmrw.
she's coming in.
i dnoe if im happy or disturbed by it.

2007-01-13T02:12:00.000+08:00

so love is a mistake afterall.
havent blogged for a long time now.
school's been stressful.
lack of sleep is becoming a prob i cant handle.
and im getting used to the teachers.
-shrugs.
i've been thinking abt hydrogen for the past few hours.
and i cant figure out a thing.
its the minor things that she does that are the the most upsetting.
on the other hand, i guess its juz me.
i make my heart stronger each time to break it once again.
over the 2 mths, i made myself stronger.
and in less than 2 weeks, i end up shattered.
so i gotta go thru the tedious process once again.
tsk, its painful.
and thanks to her, im getting numb to feelings of disappointment.
its over anw.
i dont give a damn anymore.
Z has been in sch for the past 2 days.
her same firm self.
hair sticking out here and there.
a clip holding her fringe back.
the same gorgeous lips and beautiful teeth.
the faint smile that crossed her face when she saw me.
not even a hello.
yet still nice.
i can go on forever..
haha.
fine, i accept that i did admire her a lil.
and i got back my notes.
its $8 now.
i'll throw it away soon.
-shrugs.
it's a useless chase.

2007-01-06T18:11:00.000+08:00

I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave this love behind

I ain't trippin
I'm just missing
You know what I'm saying
You know what I need

You kept me hanging on a string
Why you make me cry
I tried to give you everything
But you just gave me lies

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never doI feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool
For you....

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
I'm still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you
but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true
I'm stuck on you

Now love's a broken record that's
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we've got to play these games we play?

the scars you left behind in my heart...
*HYDROGEN SULPHATE*
only bonded in Chemistry.

2007-01-02T16:14:00.000+08:00

so 2006 has ended.
and so has my obsession.
im so sad..
school starts tmrw.
school sucks larh.

2006-12-22T19:37:00.000+08:00

so tdae was spent at je lib AGAIN.
met up with hazie and her cousin.
hazie treated me to brownie. :D
then.. abdhullah joined us.
didnt get much work done tdae.
but had fun crapping larh.
and hazie deleted one of my msg accidentally.
my EIGHTY dear msgs is now SEVENTY-NINE.
im super upset.
i dont feel satisfied.
and hydrogen juz wouldnt send me another msg.
damn, i hate it.
hydrogen, if you're reading this, can you please send me a msg?
juz a blank msg will do.. i want eighty msgs larh..
please hydrogen, be a sweetie and do it.
please? im counting on you alright.
and yes, i've never forgotten you.

2006-12-20T11:27:00.000+08:00

so i completed 6 chpts of chem ystrdae.
together with all the chem hmwk.
im proud of myself. :D
and im not talking to many guys nowadays.
juz the one that i like.
omg, did i say juz the ONE?
not bad eh. (:
anw, i dont think i can get any hmwk done tdae.
coz gotta clear out my room.
its back to the nerdy shamita once again.
but whether its the nerdy shamita or the cool shamita,
shamita always loves her sunshine.
msged sunshine yesterday.
no reply. ):
oh yes, if there are unwanted pple at my blog,
kindly GET THE FCK OUTTA HERE.
and im sure you guys know whether you're wanted or not.
i don't wish to mention names.
and its my blog.
i'll say what i want to say.
why do you actually bother to visit my blog?
stay away larh.
i stay away from your friendster and your blog too what.
sickening assholes.
alright then, i gotta go msg my baby to wake him up.
chaoz.
and yes, happy shopping for xmas! ;D

2006-12-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

im finally doing my hmwk.
yes. :D
you lost your own game, bastard.
and your gf is nothing but a cheapo and not forgetting desperate.
yikes.
even aft she found out that you were cheating on her,
she still accepted you back.
something that i'll never do.
yuck, yuck.
why do i even bother blogging abt you shit pple man?
its simply over.
ive moved on.
hmm.. issit okay if i get involved with a guy younger than me?
he's 14 dammit.
i guess its fine..
alright, im off to watch jaan e mann now.
chaoz.
oh yes, guna is sucha hottie larh.
i view his friendster profile everyday man.
- drools